Which should I choose?

I don't like myself when I didn't do anything, and when I see someone talking about (I don't know what they are talking about) and I always felt "it" is intended for me. :(

oh God, I have a feeling that the sensitivity is too bad. I want to remove this feeling.
but can't, if I do, there must be someone who would hurt because of my bad attitude.
I can't divide a state where I've to be a "bad girl" or "good girl"
If I be wicked, I'll go to hell and live with the sin of course..
but if I be a good girl, and I may be an important part of them,,, I can't feel happy,because I've to divide my time to my bestfriends
Which should I choose?